I want to take this time to apologize to all of you. I know there has not been many posts this month at all. I say this with the deepest regrets to all of you, this might be the last post on The Buzz Kill for a long while. This year started off strong but has stalled just as quick as it started. I had been taking an experimental drug to help me stop blacking out. Well, that drug has made things worse on me. I am now having seizures along with the blacking out and headaches.
I decided to take a huge risk and hop on a train and go to New Mexico. I started talking to someone that took my breath away. I wasn’t able to remove the smile off my face. I get off the train to see someone I can call one of my best friends. We had our first date and out of all places, we chose Applebee’s. Ricky Bobby would have been damn proud. Everything was going fine until she told me she wasn’t ready to live together. That we rushed into it. I wish that would have came a week and half sooner. Now, I have no way of getting back home, or have a home when I get there. I have no hard feelings toward anyone, shit happens. I care about her with all my heart, I just wish it would have turned out differently. Someday, I will have the ending I WANT!
This blog has kept me going since I have been sick. I have enjoyed posting all the dumb ass posts that make you laugh, that make you say what the fuck, and that make you think. This has been the place where I have been able to vent and put my emotions on paper. Hopefully the next time you hear from me, I will be in a better place. You guys and gals mean the world to me. I am happy that you have taken the time to read this dumb ass thing. I always said this was the dumbest thing on the internet. Well, thank you for making this dumb thing, something that will be always in my heart. We will meet again. And next time I won’t let you down.