I’ve seen you in my dreams of late
wide awake, trembling behind closed eyes
I struggle to understand it all
Flashes of you, wide smiles

You aren’t alone this time I fear
He who’s not to be named is too
Three infants I’ve met before
Their faces I know not,
Their souls, I’ve carried within my flesh
I recognize how they feel

Precious but endangered
Their cries make my heart race
I feel helpless,
In awe I smile at their beauty
Confused how have they come to be?

Why am I here
What does this all mean
My stomach churns as I feel myself wake
heart aching for just a few moments more
Abruptly I wake from this nightmare
a beautiful disastrous dream
My feet hit the floor with my heart
When will I see them again?