Dear Santa,

snow-08I hope you and Mrs. Claus are doing fantastic. I know this is the busiest time of the year for you, and I am so excited that you took the time to read my letter. I have to start off by asking something very special. Is there any way that you can make it cold and throw in some snow. I am not even caring if it touches the ground at this point. I just want to see some snow falling. I really miss it being cold at Christmas. I am expecting a Christmas floating trip at this point. I know you have enough power to make this happen, and I will keep asking until I finally am able to see my first white Christmas.

Santa, another year has gone by, and you would think by now the Christmas spirit is something that would not be as powerful inside of me. I have seen people hit rock bottom in their life, and pretty much dismiss what the true meaning of this holiday is about. I have been in that spot myself, I was at the lowest place of my life six years ago, and again two years ago. Both of those instances I watched the life that I have known crumble before my eyes. The traditions that I was accustomed too, gone in the blink of any eye, and possibly to never be replaced by new ones. I hit the lowest of lows, and a couple of times have thought it was worth it to end it all in tick of the second hand.

All of that was so true until last year…..and I wrote the letter to you that I was wanting a family. I knew it wasn’t something that I was going to find under the tree or in a gift bag. I knew it was going to be something that took time. Which is really hard for me, as you know I am very impatient. However, 2015 may honestly be the best Christmas gift I could have received in my life. My best friend and I were able to do something that was just a dream a few years ago and cover a comic con.

And then there is family. Things are better between my mother and myself which is something I thought was never going to happen. I have someone who does care about me, and now her boyfriend proposed. I know that it may have taken since the age of 12 when my grandfather passed away, but I can say that I have a Dad again. And that is something that I never thought would ever happen.

And the only phrase I could think of is…But wait there is more. Someone came into my life that has turned my world upside down. She showed me something that I can honestly say that I may have never had any relationship prior. I have never been loved for being me and that has changed. I am not sure what I would do without her. She has become my motivation, and the reason I pulled out of a depression. I have never felt love in the way that she shows me. And then her family has made me feel as I was part of theirs since the beginning. It is a surreal feeling that could never be explained.

Red-Globe-Feel-The-Christmas-Spirit-HD-WallpaperSo for Christmas, I am asking for the people in my life to feel what I have been given. The friends and family that do not know what the Christmas spirit is. I want them to feel the happiness that I have, and it can come any form possible as long as the smile is there for them at the end of the day.

As for me, what do I want? Honestly? Nothing. There is nothing better than being able to write that. I am able to finally see a light through the years of darkness that I have faced.

Thank you Santa for answering my Christmas wish from last year ago in a way that I will never forget in my life.



Ps. Ok, Moon Shoes. I still want a pair of those things. My childhood warped me.