First of all, I want to take this time to apologize to each and every one of you who read this site, and enjoy what we do. It seems sometimes the more I try to get ahead in this life, the more I feel like I’m running into a wall. In all honesty if this was Myspace the wall would be in my top 8. I have never been as happy as I am in life, I have finally found the woman I am supposed to marry and Nov. 18th we are going to be tying the knot, in what can only be described as the craziest wedding to ever happen. I am doing well in school. My health has not been getting be down for a change. It seems like everything has been wonderful and on paper it should. But the papers lie.
Life happens and sometimes you can’t explain how it happens, but it happens. A situation has happened and without going into detail at this moment, that has caused my emotional state to hit rock bottom. I have been told to just ignore it, and continue on with everyday life as nothing is wrong. However, if it were that easy, I would be reading people’s fortunes from a deck of tarot cards over an 800 number. And while it should not get to me, it does. It has destroyed the very foundation of what happiness I have been able to build up with everything else.
The situation has been so toxic that all I have done is sleep, just to be able to away from it all. It seems to be the only peace and quiet I can get at times. It has messed with me creatively and everything around me that I love to do is suffering. Especially this site. And for that I am sorry. I usually am able to deal with bull shit with a chip on my shoulder but seeing people in my life become crushed with situation has been detrimental to my state of mind. I want to go out of my way to make everyone smile, and sometimes that is just not possible.
With that being said, it is time to get back to what we do best, Being Nerdy, Being Sarcastic, Being emotional, and just being us. I am going to fight this off with all of my heart to get back to where we were. I just want to thank all of you for still being here in this time. I am not sure what we would do without you. If I could take you all for cookies and milk, I would.
The Buzz Kill Magazine.
PS. Thanks a lot Middle Tennessee for killing my bracket.