Word Vomit: Personal Demons


Personal Demons

© Edd Sowder, Original July 2003, revised July 2018

 

I tried so hard not to embrace it.

This utter emptiness within me.

I know that I’m not the only one…

Who feels the dark is all consuming

 

I tried to get over it

and I tried to live amongst you

There were demons flapping their wings I see…

Gnashing their teeth to bite into me.

 

Now my heart is a very dark place

It’s cold and damp

every time I visit.

With no shelter,

none worth hiding in.

Then as the pain comes back

It’s flooding again.

 

There was a day

not too long ago…

I felt as high as a mountaintop.

As the winds were too strong

and I was still so weak

I knew it wouldn’t be long

after the darkness settled in

That my heart would just stop.

 

On top of the world, I once knew…

My life ended that day.

All of these monsters and the demons

that I couldn’t keep away

 

Feast upon me, always ripping at me

tearing at what’s left of my flesh

over and over, chewing on my bones,

Since I sold my soul, this is the existence

I have accepted and now own.


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Edd Sowder

Most people know Edd as the overactive and imaginative husband of novelist Kindra Sowder, or as the person the boss at TBK brings on the show that cusses a shit ton. He is a self-admitted asshole most of the time. Little is known of his writing prowess as he keeps it quietly to himself most of the time by helping other, far better authors with his editing skills on their novels… that being said, nothing read in the posts TBK allows him to have are edited professionally. Edd is not an idiot by any means but he has stayed in Holiday Inn Expresses at times. He prefers the country life and escapes to his family farm from time to time in Tennessee where he admits to having little to no cell phone coverage and loving it. He lives in South Carolina where he is chained to his desk most days and into the wee hours of the morning. Every now and again, he is able to fidget the lock enough to break loose and run amok amongst the common folk.
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