© Edd Sowder, Original July 2003, revised July 2018
I tried so hard not to embrace it.
This utter emptiness within me.
I know that I’m not the only one…
Who feels the dark is all consuming
I tried to get over it
and I tried to live amongst you
There were demons flapping their wings I see…
Gnashing their teeth to bite into me.
Now my heart is a very dark place
It’s cold and damp
every time I visit.
With no shelter,
none worth hiding in.
Then as the pain comes back
It’s flooding again.
There was a day
not too long ago…
I felt as high as a mountaintop.
As the winds were too strong
and I was still so weak
I knew it wouldn’t be long
after the darkness settled in
That my heart would just stop.
On top of the world, I once knew…
My life ended that day.
All of these monsters and the demons
that I couldn’t keep away
Feast upon me, always ripping at me
tearing at what’s left of my flesh
over and over, chewing on my bones,
Since I sold my soul, this is the existence
I have accepted and now own.