Word Vomit: “Buried Memories”

Poetry for the soul.


“Buried Memories”

Eddie Sowder

© December 11, 2018 (used by permission)

 

I had buried all thoughts of you

Beneath my now thickened skin

I walked away with lost innocence

Lost to where I need to begin

 

Looking back at myself in the mirror

It’s obvious my heart remains enraged

So far, just bleak destruction inside

Ripping itself open to bleed every day

 

And now I must tell you

If you loved me, let my memory die

Inside my heart I already have

Never shed a tear, don’t you ever cry

 

Run far and leave me behind

My eyes too blackened to care

It’s easier to live without me

If you believe I wasn’t really there.

 

I’ve buried my memory of you

Beneath this outer shell

As new walls were built as protection

I live my life torturing myself inside a private hell

 

I walked away without my soul

Heartbeats stopping before I even felt you go

I don’t care if I ever stop feeling the pain

Mental stability was lost far before I’d ever know

 

And now I must tell you

If you loved me, let my memory die

Inside my heart I already have

Never shed a tear, don’t you ever cry

 

Run far and leave me behind

My eyes too blackened to care

It’s easier to live without me

If you believe I wasn’t really there.

 

I was never worth the time you spent

I think you’ve made that pretty clear

And I know I used to wake, screaming your name

I prayed that you would never hear

 

 

I never deserved to have you

I just wish I had never fallen for you

Because you cannot miss what is never known

Now, nothing remains of my tortured soul

 

And now I must tell you

If you loved me, let my memory die

Inside my heart I already have

Never shed a tear, don’t you ever cry

 

Run far and leave me behind

My eyes too blackened to care

It’s easier to live without me

If you believe I wasn’t really there.

 

I buried your memories behind my hardened eyes

Dropping no more tears on the floor below

No longer will I soak in my sorrows

I finally see that I no longer need to know

 

There is a silent death that awaits my heart

A trembling that overtakes my self-control

With the feeling overwhelming my mind

I was dead to you long ago

 

And now I must tell you

If you loved me, let my memory die

Inside my heart I already have

Never shed a tear, don’t you ever cry

 

Run far and leave me behind

My eyes too blackened to care

It’s easier to live without me

If you believe I wasn’t really there.


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Edd Sowder

Most people know Edd as the overactive and imaginative husband of novelist Kindra Sowder, or as the person the boss at TBK brings on the show that cusses a shit ton. He is a self-admitted asshole most of the time. Little is known of his writing prowess as he keeps it quietly to himself most of the time by helping other, far better authors with his editing skills on their novels… that being said, nothing read in the posts TBK allows him to have are edited professionally. Edd is not an idiot by any means but he has stayed in Holiday Inn Expresses at times. He prefers the country life and escapes to his family farm from time to time in Tennessee where he admits to having little to no cell phone coverage and loving it. He lives in South Carolina where he is chained to his desk most days and into the wee hours of the morning. Every now and again, he is able to fidget the lock enough to break loose and run amok amongst the common folk.
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